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i’m burnt out

~ Etc.

today was a rough day.  actually, it’s been a rough couple of weeks.  i don’t know if it’s because i’m sick too but it seemed like my kids were being more naughty than usual and making way more mess than usual today.  adi got a ladder and opened the cereal cupboards and got out a big bag of cereal(not the box ones but the big, more economical bagged ones) and decided to make a trail around the whole house for our little “kitty” a.k.a her little sister ana, while playing pretend kitty vs. owner, while i was cleaning up another mess in another room. 
that was just one thing they did and i don’t want to list every single thing they did, but it seemed like more than any other day that i was cleaning up after their mess one after the other, over and over again, all day long, and i was just so weary and exhausted all day.  adi doesn’t nap anymore and gets so cranky by the time jay comes home from work and let’s be honest, i’m pretty cranky too.  poor jay. 
so when jay came home, i tried to be upbeat and all but it didn’t last long.  my girls are at the stage where they want mommy to do everything and they were just hovering over me and wanting my attention every single second, asking questions or demanding something from me every single second, and they get more clingy when daddy comes home, i don’t know why.  so i was hoping to get a little peace and quiet when jay got home, so i grabbed some clementines and sat down on the couch in our livingroom to eat it, my girls followed right behind me and started fighting over who gets to get on my back by screaming right by my ear while both trying to grab my neck and get on my back and pushing each other and fighting, i wanted to scream.  but I just bottled it up inside and kept peeling my clementine.  then when I was done peeling, the girls wanted it so I split it in half and gave it to them, and started peeling another one for myself.  Then ana chewed or squeezed one slice of the clementine and it squirted right in my eye and it stung, and that’s when i couldn’t bottle it up any longer.  i started to cry and kept saying to jay, “please. please just take the kids somewhere before i lose my sanity.  please.  just go.  right now.  go.  please.”  so poor jay had no choice but to take them out.
then two hours later, i hear them opening the door and two little feet running towards me screaming “mommy!” all excitedly and i turn to look to see this:
jay told me how since they knew i was sad, they wanted to go get me flowers to make me feel better.  how can i not be happy and not smile when i see this? adalie later asked me, “mommy, why are you sad? do you have an owie?” i said to her, “i have an owie on the inside of my body.”  she said, “oh, i’m sorry, mommy.  i’m sorry you have an owie on the inside of your body and that i can’t kiss it better.” while ana not fully understanding what we said, came up to me to give me a big kiss. 

i do feel better.  but i think i seriously need a girl’s night out or a girls’ trip.  what do you do when you get burnt out being a mother? or what do you do to NOT get burnt out from being a mother? and i wonder, are there any mothers out there that never get burnt out? because if you don’t, i want to meet you and find out about all your secrets.

I’m about to go crazy!!!

~ Etc.

I’m so tired/frustrated/angry right now!!!  my youngest daughter ana has been crying and screaming for a little over 3 hrs. now.  it’s past 1 a.m!!!   i’m heartbroken that she’s been crying for so long, her poor little throat and how red and puffy her eyes must be…  i feel terrible for the renters in our basement who can hear it all, who happens to sleep right below ana’s bedroom, i feel helpless because i lied down with her for 2 hrs. pretending to be asleep, hoping she would follow my lead and fall asleep but no- everytime i opened my eyes she would be starring right back at me with her eyes wide open, so i got frustrated and just put her in her crib and walked out of her bedroom-thus causing her to be screaming and crying for over 3 hrs., i feel more stressed that it doesn’t bother my husband one bit, that our child is crying and screaming, nor does he feel bad for the renters because he says, “there’s nothing you can do so why stress?” ARGH. that makes me stress more. 
i have no idea why she’s all the sudden like this the past few weeks.  she’s been such a good sleeper most of her life, we have a schedule of bathing, praying, reading books,singing, and i do this shadow puppet show for her, then we spin around in the rocking chair, then i hold and kiss her and tell her how much i love her, and put her in her crib and without a cry or a fuss, she would lie down in her crib, i close the door and we don’t hear a sound from her the whole night until about 12 hrs. later.  she was such a doll so what happened?  i don’t think she’s teething, is she scared of the dark? i tried the night light but she still cried.  is it the terrible two’s? she’s turning two in a week.  maybe they just get really clingry and needy at this age?  last night i slept with her on the floor, right next to her crib because she didn’t want to go in her crib.  but i need my alone time, i can’t go to bed with her every night! i NEED my alone time when the kids go to sleep, the only time in the day when i can do something for myself and do whatever i want to do(after washing the dishes and cleaning that is), and not worry about the kids.  so what do i do??? and do you get so angry and frustrated too when you hear your kids scream and cry for a loooong time? i don’t swear but oh boy do i want to say some swear words out loud like every 2 minutes!

Today was one of those days…

~ Etc.

Ana had her shots today, Adi didn’t nap today(even after 1 1/2 hrs. of trying) which equals no naps for me which equals three females in one household who are a little cranky, moody and irritable. Not the most pleasant combination. It was one of those days where I wished my mom lived near so I could just drop the kids off and have some alone time for just a little bit. Man, how does Jay deal with all our female hormones? I think I need a son to balance all these crazy hormones out. (now just chill, I meant later down the road n not right now, I know I know it’s already a shocker that Ana turned one without having a mother who’s prego.;)

So I fed them dinner early, and put them to bed. Hey that reminds me of that nursery rhyme:

There was an old woman who lived in a shoe,
She had so many children she didn’t know what to do,
She gave them some broth without any bread;
She whipped them all soundly and put them to bed.

Well in my case it was:

There was a young woman who lived in provo
She had two children under two she didn’t know what to do,
She gave them some broth mixed with white rice
She kissed them all soundly and put them to bed.
She sighed a sigh of relief and ate a piece of chocolate cake!

All true story. And seriously, who says emotional eating is bad for you?

Why YOU should have a baby NOW

~ Etc.



I was SOOOOO bored last Thursday with nothing to do. Then I realized I want and need some mommy friends bad. Adalie’s at that age where if she has a friend over, they do their own thing and leave me alone for at least 50% of the time. That’s 50% more time for me to spend towards Ana or chatting up with my friend! None of my best friends are mommies yet! I’m tired of making friends with other mommies just because they’re a mommy like me. We become friends with conversations that always start with, “How old is your son/daughter?” And when we get together all we talk about is, “Where do you buy your diapers? What cream do you use for their rash? How many naps does your child take?” blah blah blah boring boring boring. I want a friend who I can talk to about mommy stuff as well as reminesce about our past years, share funny, crazy stories to each other, someone I would’ve become friends with even if I wasn’t a mother because I think she’s way cool, instead of being friends because they have kids around the same age as my kids.

So here’s my genius idea of encouraging all my married friends to get pregnant.

Here are 15 reasons why you should have a kid while you’re young. Like NOW! ;D

 -Researchers funded by the National Institutes of Health have found that older mothers with normal, full-term pregnancies — particularly first-time older mothers — were more likely to undergo Caesarean delivery than were younger women with similarly low-risk pregnancies.

 -You get less stretch marks,(more buoyancy your skin is the younger you are).
-Women having kids in their early 20’s tend to gain less weight during their pregnancy(usually less than the 25-35 lbs.) and lose the pregnancy weight faster. (I know this is gonna be a big-seller! 😉

 -The younger you are, the smoother your pregnancy will be. “Because your eggs are young and more likely to be healthy, it’s generally easy to conceive now.” says Jennifer R. Niebyl, MD, professor and head of the department of obstetrics and gynecology at the University of Iowa Hospitals and Clinic, in Iowa City. 

-High-quality eggs also translate into a lower risk of birth defects; at 25, the likelihood of having a baby with Down syndrome is about 1 in 1,250. The chances that you’ll miscarry are also minimal, since carrying a fetus with Down syndrome or another chromosomal disorder is often the reason women lose a pregnancy, notes Dr. Niebyl.

 -Steven Goldstein, MD, a professor of obstetrics and gynecology at New York University Medical Center, adds that women Lyons’s age are also more likely to have a smoother time recovering from birth. “The older you are, the harder it is to bounce back,” he says.

 -Age may also affect your delivery experience. According to a recent March of Dimes study, 80 percent of women in their 20s give birth vaginally, compared with 40 percent of women in their 30s and 43 percent in their 40s. “Vaginal deliveries are more common in younger women because their bodies have more muscle tone in the uterus and abs. This makes pushing easier,” says Dr. Schwarz.

 -You have a lower risk of gestational diabetes, and hypertension.

 -Delievery and recovery is easier and faster.

 -you may be increasing your protection against future problems such as breast and ovarian cancers.

 -In your 20’s, your risk of infertility, miscarriage, and health problems are the lowest they’ll ever be.

 -Have more energy to play with your kids, be a part of their life longer, not too old when you become a grandparent so you can do fun activities with your grandchildren.

 -Less generation gap with your children so you can relate to them more.

 -When your kids graduate from HS and move on to College, you and your husband are still young to do whatever you want.

 -When your kids are in school-age, you are still young to compete in the career world.

 -Lower risk for birth defects. The older you are, the higher the chances are of your child being born with Downs Syndrome and other chromosomal abnormalities.

See, don’t you wanna go make a baby now? If you’re married now, you know what to do to make it happen. If you’re not married yet, go grab the first guy you see, elope in Vegas, then pop one out! If that’s not your thing(and I don’t see why not) and you like me and my kids, come on over, I would love to listen to your single-life, dating stories! And if you’re a mommy already and you think I’m sorta cool and you think I’ll like you too, let’s be friends!!! I sound desperate but it’s only because I AM!!! hahaha oh so sad…….

I could use some advice from other parents…

~ Etc.

It’s 9:20 pm. and I just spent the last hour and 20 mins. trying to put Adalie to sleep. I finally couldn’t just lie there waiting for her to fall asleep so I explained to her how she is a big girl now and she needs to learn to fall asleep by herself and how Ariana sleeps in her own room and she needs to do it too. I kissed her good night and walked out of the room. She is pounding on the door and crying as I type. I cannot spend 1 1/2 hrs. every night just lying next to her waiting for her to fall asleep before I sneak out ever so quietly anymore!!! Jay and I usually go to bed at 11 pm and we put the kids to sleep between 8-9 pm and what, that leaves us less than 2 hrs. to ourselves. We need our time with each other! UGH it’s our fault we started this horrible habit but it’s seriously time to stop after 2+ years. So any advice from you parents out there? What did you do with your child to help them fall asleep by themselves in their own bed? we just started sleeping on the same bed(Jay and I) about 2 months ago and before that, Jay slept with Adi and I slept with Ana. But in the middle of the night Adalie always wakes up and pounds on the door and cries and Jay ends up going downstairs to go back to sleep with her. So any advice on helping her to sleep by herself the whole night? Or is that too much to ask for a 2 yr. old? HELP!!!