dress: anthropologie | cardigan & shoes: target
photographs by Jessica Peterson
This yellow lace dress is a non-maternity dress but I bought it 4 sizes bigger on purpose so that I could wear it while I’m pregnant. I plan on altering it once I have the baby and return back to my pre-maternity size, however long that’ll take. I’m actually a little nervous about this being my third pregnancy and how it’s suppose to be harder to get back in shape the more kids you have, but I guess I’ll worry about that after this baby’s out. I also get nervous about having three kids because every single mother I’ve ever talked to has told me having three kids is by far the hardest and most overwhelming. One is easy, two is manageable, three is super tough, and after that it doesn’t matter how many kids you have, they all seem to say. One mother even told me(before I was pregnant with my third) not to have a third child and how I’ll regret it and to live my life instead because with three kids, my own life, goals and dreams would be over. Another mother also told me when her third child was just a couple months old, to just stop at two kids because it was so hard. I talked to a mutual friend several months later about how every single mother has told me how difficult having a third child is, and she told me she recently talked to one mother who said it was just the same as having two kids. I asked who that mother was and guess what, it was the same mother that told me to just stop at two kids. She must have deleted the difficult moments out of her memory and no longer remember! No wonder why mothers keep having more kids, right? It’s a big conspiracy, I’m telling you!
I used to get high anxiety about it where I would literally feel my heartbeat go faster and I had to take deep breathes to keep myself from feeling faint, but now I’m like, “Bring it on! It’s going to happen no matter what so I’m going on beast-mode and say I can do this!!” That attitude might change once the baby’s out, but you know, for now it helps with my sanity so I’m sticking to it!
If any of you are mothers with three or more kids, feel free to send me some advice/reality along the way so I can prepare myself mentally. Thank you. Gracias. Chao.