Count yourself lucky that you weren’t around this grumpy mama yesterday. It’s funny how you are doing so well, feeling like you’re doing pretty well with this whole motherhood thing, when it smacks you in the head and you realize, you are burned out to a crisp.
After a long, long day, well, more like a long several months of filling everyone else’s canteen except for mine, I wanted nothing but peace and quiet, to relax and just be alone in my own home. But that wasn’t possible, and I finally lost it when we were eating dinner and Jay had stepped out for a short while and the girls got in a fight. I sat at the dinner table yelling, “I just want to eat dinner in peace for 5 minutes, is that too much to ask? I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t cook, I can’t clean, I can’t poo, I can’t do anything without getting interrupted!!! Someone always wants me to fix something, get something, refill something, reach something, wipe something, clean something, go do this, go do that, or get in a fight, or wants my constant attention, AHHHH, this is too much!!! I just want peace for 5 minutes, without anybody asking me to do something for them!!!” After I whined like a little girl, I plopped on the ground and cried like one too. Then my two girls came and hugged me and cried with me. Then Jay came and wrapped his huge arms around all three of us and cried sarcastically and mockingly, which then made me laugh for a short while, but then I quickly resumed back to my crying episode one, and two. Three might happen any minute, yo better hide yo kids!
All three of them left me alone the rest of the night(well, not really, the girls kept coming to me saying, “mommy, look! mommy, can you…” then I hear Jay in the background, “girls, come here! don’t talk to mom right now!”…smart guy), but I’m still burned out, I just can’t shake it off! I’ve been telling Jay that he should take the girls on a weekend camping trip while I stay at home all by myself(honestly, no other vacation sounds better than for me to stay all alone at my house, is that weird?), so maybe after my episode last night, he’ll really take me up on it? (hint, hint, eh hem, cough cough!)
What do you do when you feel burned out?
