i’ve been a little down the past few days for no apparent reason. nothing but good has happened to me lately but I wasn’t the usual bubbly, happy person 24/7. i didn’t cry or anything remotely big but I knew I was missing something. Then I just realized it. I’ve been lacking spiritually. I’ve been slacking on scripture reading. and praying alone with a sincere heart and a listening ear. I go to church every Sunday but it’s so hard to pay attention while tending to two kids who have an attention span of 10 secs. I try to read them the book of mormon everyday but I’ve been slacking lately on that too. I read the ensign the day it arrives and toss it somewhere and don’t look at it again. I NEED to remember to read the scriptures DAILY, to pray and converse with God instead of saying the ritual prayer and then not listening to him afterwards. I need to have a quiet moment everyday to meditate and ponder instead of being on the phone, watching t.v, use the computer, or even sew any free time/chance I get.
I’m grateful for days like I just had. Because sometimes you don’t realize you’re running low on your spiritual cantene until it’s almost empty. I’m going to do better so that I don’t have to be running on low to realize what I was missing.
many times I get caught up in wordly things and worry/stress/wish about certain things when in the end, none of the things I stress about matters! What matters is my relationship with God, my family, my husband and my darling two little girls, and my progress of becoming a better person. That is the only thing you take with you when you die anyway. Your knowledge, character, and your relationships with others.
From now on, I will make a promise to myself that on my to-do list,
#1 will be praying fervently
#2 reading my scriptures
before I do anything else on my to-do list. or any leisure activity I enjoy.
I love our Heavenly Father for helping me to realize this. He is so caring and wonderful.
here’s a video that made me teary and happy today. Motherhood:-An-Eternal-Partnership
