french toast for breakfast
picture with daddy after church
dinner with my parents and jay’s parents
and a picture with my dad
and lately more than ever, i’ve noticed i lack so much as a person. that i’m so far from the person i’d like to be. for instance, i’ve been complaining and whining a lot, sometimes out loud, but mostly in my head about what jay could do to make me happier, how happier i’d be if he stopped doing certain things or did more things, but all that does is just get me down. so as my present to jay, i’ve promised myself and him one thing. that instead of thinking about what he can do/not do to make me happier, i’ll try to always think what can i do to make him happy? i believe that i’ll be happier that way because self-centeredness is like money, no one can ever do enough for you, there’s always more that you want and you’re never completely satisfied. so while i can’t control or change another person, i can change myself and my attitude and there’s always something i can do to make him happier. i can’t promise he’ll always be happy but i can promise him to make him feel better, a little happier, like at times when it’s hard, i’ll be there for him, listen to him, cheer him up by serving him. and i believe it’ll be a win-win situation for both of us because when i lose myself by serving others and forget about my needs and forget about what others can do for me, but instead think what i can do for others, that’s when i’m the happiest.
it’s worked out great so far, but then again, it’s only been 3 days. please wish me luck because oh boy, i’ll need it. 😉
