My Sleeping Angel

These pictures make me cry. It makes me sad that I don’t have many sleeping pictures of him and he’s already turning two at the end of this month. I see these adorable pictures on Instagram of babies napping and the pictures are taken in a bright natural light, but I always make my kids nap with the blackout curtains and it’s really dark which keeps me from taking pictures of my kids. I think this is my very first time taking a picture of him napping since he was a newborn and it breaks my heart knowing that. He’s not a baby anymore. I wish I had taken more pictures of him while he napped, there’s just something about little babies and kids sleeping that gets me. I wish I had pictures of him sleeping when he was 6 months old, a year old, 18 months old. 

This little guy is hitting the terrible two’s with his screams and meltdowns and surprisingly, I am way more patient with him than I was with my other two. Maybe it’s because I know the terrible two’s won’t last for a long time and even though everyone thinks he’s 3 since he’s so tall, he still looks so little to me, compared to his two big sisters. So when he screams and cries, I can’t help but smile at his cuteness and think how adorable is it that he’s freaking out over something so small but then when you think about it, it’s the worst thing that’s happened to him in his whole life so it’s pretty traumatizing to him. How cute is that? To think he’s only lived for so short that the saddest moments of his life is when his mommy makes you leave the playground that you so love playing and want to stay longer. I smile in secret so he can’t see because I don’t want him to know I think it’s kind of cute and it might encourage him to do it more. And no matter how terrible the terrible two’s might be, and I am sure there will come a time when I won’t be patient with his meltdowns and lose my patience, but even then, I am sure my heart will melt as I look at his sleeping face and he looks like a true angel, so quiet and so innocent. 

Sometimes I am so tempted to post plethora of pictures of my kids because, like other mothers, I think my kids are the cutest. And I want to show off how cute they are to the world and I know the world will fall in love with them because like my boy here, he is truly the happiest, sweetest, funniest  and goofiest little 23 month old. But then I think it’s not worth their lack of privacy and I don’t need the whole world to fall in love with my kids and adore them, they just need me and Jay to do that. So these once in awhile snippets will have to do.