do you ever wish you never did something after you’ve done it? well that’s me after being on live t.v this morning. i have a nasty feeling in my stomach right now because after watching the recorded show about 5 times now and cringing every second of it, i just don’t feel good about it. there was no script, it was live, i drove 2 hrs. in traffic yesterday to get the necklace that i made that’s being displayed at a bridal dress boutique since it was part of the projects i was suppose to show and talk about but we never got to talk about it, we had 15 mins. to set up the table and one dress didn’t fit the mannequinn form because it was too small, i had no time to touch up on my make-up that i put in the car while i was driving to the studio or my hair, the lighting and the angle made me look bad, i had no idea what questions she was going to ask me so it threw me off and i was awkward, i was suppose to show 2 demonstrations of my DIY projects but in the end she just said how i only had one minute to show one project, one minute, are you kidding me? oh gosh, and i have tears streaming down my face right now and i don’t know why, maybe it’s that time of the month or that’s just my excuse for crying over such a stupid thing.
and do you ever go through periods where you feel so ugly? well, i’ve felt that lately, and feel really insecure about my looks, like my braces, i hate them and i’m so sick of wearing them(i was suppose to get it off 4 months ago) and just watching the video made it so much worse because i looked so bad. i know that’s vain but i guess i’m vain. not to mention i never knew i looked so funny talking with my braces and the way i close my mouth, it’s just painful to watch. but cameras don’t lie so that’s really how i look and it makes me sad. and please don’t give me compliments, that’s not what i’m looking for and it’ll make me feel worse because i don’t want sympathy. oh gosh, i cannot stop crying! so stupid.
and i feel so stupid for being so open and honest on the internet where anybody could read my vulnerable thoughts. but oh well, i guess it’s not my 1st time right?
anyway, here’s the clip of the show since i promised some of you. argh, i really don’t want to share though.
(so i wrote that earlier in the day and now this is about 8 hrs. later…)
i’m so over it now. i still cringe while watching it but i guess i could’ve done worse, and hey, everybody’s got bad angles right? and looks are not everything about a person, what i have to offer on the inside is far more important and far more beautiful. and i don’t mean to sound ungrateful, i’m so grateful to studio 5 for this opportunity and they were all so kind to me and i know none of these were their faults, just my issues. jay came to see what i was doing as i was crying nonstop and blogging and he shut the computer off and he just held me like a baby(literally. he does that when i’m sad and crying, i hate it but he’s so much stronger than me, i have no choice.) and comforted me. he even wiped my nasty snot with his white shirt he was wearing, even though i kept refusing. and the girls came and saw me crying and they just kept putting their faces like 1 inch close to my face and asking why i was crying. they gave me many kisses on the lips, not caring that i had snot and tears drooling down my lips, and ana ran off somewhere and came back with a tulip she pulled from our backyard, handed it to me, then went off again and got another tulip to give to me. so sweet. why should i be sad when i got the most important things right in front of me? i’ve realized i’m sad when i focus on myself only and become self absorbed. the best way to get out of that pity party is to pray to God for all the blessings i do have, think of the more important things in life, and forget myself and serve others and focus on their happiness, not mine . it works everytime.
anyway whew, on a lighter note, we’re going on a mini staycation for the weekend and i’m sooooo excited!!! i hope you’ll have a wonderful weekend.
No pity. No sympathy. Sarah—THAT WAS FANTASTIC!!!! Those live morning shows are always so stressful to do and you came across as intelligent, genuine, sweet, and very stylish and pretty!
I hope you'll consider that appearance to be a complete success!
Your re-styles came off looking cool and clever, as did you.
Seriously, I've seen hundreds of those segments and this one really connected. It'll get easier the more you do, which I'm sure you will be asked to from now on.
studio 5 hunted you down too?! as a recent fellow live tv appearer i can say i 100% understand how you feel — really, watching yourself on tv is tortuuuuuure. that said – you were amazingly great. so talented, lovely and wearing the perfect classy outfit. can we hang out soon please? me and lauren (our other roommate) just saw your fbook profile and were reminded of how much we love all of glorias bff's!
I read your comments, and thought to myself, "oh no" because I am on TV tomorrow, and dreading watching myself.. but anyway, I wanted to say two things. Firstly, you were fantastic, I think you did exceptionally well, especially for live TV, and your dress demonstration was so good that I want to try it right now!
Secondly, I wondered if you wouldn't mind if I shared the TV clip on my blog?
Well done Sarah, you are an inspiration!
I think we are always harder on ourselves and see things that others don't. I personally thought your clip was great. You were informative and knew exactly what you were talking about. Great job.
I watched the video clip. You were great. I wish I could sew. Btw, I voted for you.
I think you were awesome! You are so talented and I would have stuttered the hell out of myself if I was ever on a show…
Ohh come on! don't be so hard on yourself, I worked for an Italian network and let me tell you, I saw these wonderful looking people, almost flawless, and all had the same complaints as you, either they had issued with their noses or cellulite or some other stuff, but mostly is because we all have a distorted vision of ourselves ingrained in our head, what other see in ourselves we are blind to it, and our flaws we see them through a magnifing glass.
That was awesome! You are gorgeous and talented and you did a wonderful job. Gotta run cause I am going thrifting for a pleated skirt to make your stunning dress!
O.K. I just watched that and didn't notice any of the negative things that you did about yourself. Simple case of being too hard on yourself. You noticed things that nobody else will – seriously…we're all just in awe of your designs. You look beautiful just like you do in the pictures on your blog!
I think that you did great…and I am not saying it because I just want to make you feel good! I think that you have such great ideas….and you are not ugly at all…but I understand, we are our own worst critics sometimes…!
Well, I thought it was awesome and you have great ideas!…which I might have to just try!
Wow, not what I was expecting at all from how you described it! YOU WERE AWESOME!!!!!!
And I'm sure you inspired so many people with your wonderful budget friendly options.
Great job!!!!!!!
Sarah,
I loved all of your ideas. You were great. You explained everything so simply and I think you helped a lot of women find simpler, easier ways to update their wardrobe.
Sarah,
"You were great!"
Sometimes we are own worst critic/enemy. You were clear, in command of your voice, you looked great and represented yourself well.
A couple more these interviews, and there will be more, you'll be even better.
I loved it.
God is our strength when we are weak.
aw i just got done watching it..you did such a great job!!! you look so lovely too .. but I do understand about watching yourself on tv and also you hearing yourself talk.
Im sure when your kids are older they are going to love to see this clip!
enjoy your weekend!
xoxo
http://www.simplyvonne.blogspot.com
Awwww sweetie, don't be so hard for yourself! I watched the clip and I think you souond very natural! No mistakes and I understand every bit you said. And that without script! And you look very beautiful and so young! The collection looks very nice aswell ^___^
You did well dear 🙂 very well.
xx
How difficult and stressful "LIVE" TV would be! You handled it perfectly and I think that lady giving you 60 whole seconds to explain the skirt to dress?! Are you kidding me, that's insane. I probably would have yelled at her afterwards!!!!!!!
You were wonderful! I really enjoyed watching that clip. We are our own worst critics. I love what you shared, you didn't seem frazzled at all. I think you held yourself together really well and were able to answer everything asked of you really well! Don't be so hard on yourself. You really were great!
I think you did great! you were so informative and inspiring, i'm ready to overhaul my closet! thank you!
Sweet Sarah, you are entirely too hard on yourself. When reading your entry, I could of been reading my own journal. 99% of the time, what we "think" we see is not actually present or no one else see's it from that same perspective. (as in the case of the other comments left here). Don't beat yourself up, in your mind it wasn't perfect, but that's ok. Next time you will do things differently. Keep your chin up! Enjoy your weekend,
I just saw the clip! your are AMAZING!!!!! so don´t worry!! I think everthing went great!!!
You have an amazing talent for sewing and I am glad I get to know you through your blog. You look beautiful and remember that you are a child of God. You are wonderful just because of that fact.
You did a wonderful job. We are so hard on ourselves! It was your first TV appearance, you can't expect to be a pro… but you definitely seemed like one. Be proud of yourself, you were really great.
you are a beautiful person and i find your honesty truly refreshing. we are so our own worst critic…i was looking at how huge my butt looked in our easter pictures and have been worried about it ever since. i literally had to pep talk myself into believing that i must still look ok despite that its been a long winter and crappy spring with lots of sickness and inactivity if i haven't gone up a jean size, right? haha.
We are always the most critical of ourselves!
You looked sensational! Great job, it was super informative and way fun! You are fabulous!
Nat 🙂
i didn't see the entire segment, but i didn't know about your blog before and was impressed with your ideas! I've been checking out your blog since and i really like it! so no worries if you're not 100% happy how it turned out, now more people have access to your cool blog!
Sarah!
What are you talking about? I just finished watching your segment and you were AWESOME!!
I can't believe there is so much talent in one gal…great job
Yes, Sarah you were fantastic and looked great! I've been amazed by all your projects and all of my favorites were there! Really what a great opportunity to make your incredible talent become more widely known. I'm really impressed :).
Hahah…BTW, I'm logged in as Ryan. It's Cherisse 🙂
You were AWESOME!!! You were not at all terrible and you looked beautiful!!! I think we are always harder on ourselves and our own worse critics. You have every reason to feel totally proud of yourself.
I thought you looked great! Also, I didn't know Shabby Apple was going to make a version of your dress. I'm totally going to put it on my "to get" list!
Oh Sarah, I feel so bad that you feel bad.
You looked completely darling and sweet. I think anyone who reads your blog knows that you are also that way in real life.
I love your stuff and you! I know you asked for no compliments but you are completely stunning! Seriously. Live be damned;)
I just watched your clip, and girl, I am not just saying this to make you feel better. You rocked it! I am so inspired right now to create fabulous clothes just like you do. I know you said no compliments, but you were stunning. I'm glad you are feeling better about it now. You should OWN that, girl!! I would've been a mess to be on live tv, but you seriously rocked it out. 🙂
Hi, I didn't know about you until I saw you on Studio 5. I thought you were graceful and honestly I didn't notice the braces – Really I didn't! I have found someone like me – What you do with clothing is a passion of mine. I thought I was the only one – and in turn felt really self conscious. I don't any longer – we are warrior designers you and I with a passion for making something outdated into something that is an eye catching designer statement. I appreciated your segment on T.V. much more than you know. Have a wonderful weekend and I will be looking to you for more inspiration!!! – Warmest regards Heather Johnson
Wow, after I read your note I was almost crying for you before I watched the clip! THEN I WATCHED IT!
Honey you were so wonderful! I was so into it! You looked pretty, and so poised! I bet that one day you will have your own show! You are much to hard on yourself.
Wow Sarah! You are INSANELY TALENTED! I wouldn't be surprised if you'll be designing clothes for Anthropology one day. I loved watching that news clip of you. Super inspiring. Great job! And I know you don't want compliments, so I already broke that rule, but you're beautiful! I remember the first time I saw the picture of you on the couch in the white dress I thought it was a magazine shot or an ad, and then realized it was you. Beautiful.
Sarah,
I just watched the whole thing and that it was very interesting. This is first time I have visited your blog and the tv spot was interesting and inspiring. We are all so hard on ourselves- unfortunately a natural human trait. You looked chic and confident. It's really hard to feel so exposed but you did great. Your clothing is beautiful and you deserve every bit of attention you get for your lovely designs. I'll be checking again soon to see what is next. You'll be a regular on the today show before you know it!
Sarah, I just watched it and thought you looked lovely! It's awesome for you to get exposure on TV, because you design such wonderful things. I think we're too hard on ourselves. Really, I do think that what anyone will remember is what beautiful things you can make at thrift store prices and the awesome ideas. I love what you shared!
I know you don't want compliments. You were fantastic! I was just so amazed at your talent. You were pretty. We are always hardest on ourselves. It's just female nature. Please don't stop!
-Paulette
I am such a fan now after watching that segment on studio 5. Dont worry you looked beautiful!!!
you were so brave to be on tv! i understand that some people can feel self conscious about things, especially your situation in particular. it's normal. we are always our own worst critic 🙂 however, i still think you looked darling! <3
SARAH honestly you were SO GOOD. people who dedicate their college education and career to doing live tv still mess up a lot- look it up on youtube! don't be so hard on yourself. you have such a pretty face and a killer bod, i mean look at the host in her frumpy outfit! it was obvious that you are insanely talented and you were a much more eloquent speaker than she was (she loved the word 'darling' didn't she?). you were totally awesome and you should have totally thrown in a plug for S.T. Collection out of spite for only giving you a minute! haha.
I think you are amazing!
I love your diy-projects so much.
@ btw. You have great family, and the most beautiful daughters so — don´t be sad!
I've recently started reading your blog, and you are an inspiration!! I'm not giving any false compliments or pity or sympathy or anything, but that clip was great! You weren't awkward, you sounded like you knew exactly what you are talking about (which you DO!) and you were so cute to watch! You gave me the extra motivation to get out and find me a pleated skirt! Thanks for doing what you do, and for being so real and open with us! You are fabulous!
you were great! you are such an inspiration! i need to learn how to sew!
Are you kidding me? You did a wonderful job! You seemed very comfortable and conversational, you are a natural! I love your blog even more, now!!!
🙂
And, seriously, you look beautiful.
It was a great segment!
WOW! I loved it! You are far too hard on yourself. That was great. I think you did an amazing job. Thanks so much for sharing the link!
You were great!
You're just adorable and did amazing 🙂
I know how you feel. my sisters and I were on the Nate Berkus show and it is PAINFUL to watch. PAINFUL. The pain eventually goes away if that makes you feel better.
You can see my embarrassment:
http://www.thejproject2010.blogspot.com
it's on the sidebar on the right under Nate Berkus clips.
I just watched the whole thing and LOVED it! I do have those days where things just go wrong and I don't feel pretty or creative or what-have-you, but you looked amazing and spoke well and I am totally inspired by your DIY wardrobe. Such talent. Thanks for posting the video!
http://jodiink.com
Sarah, that clip was awesome! I am so so proud of you!! Now I'm going to have a famous sister.. One day you'll look back on this clip when you have your own show like Oprah and think that was my first intro to TV and think fondly of it.. But I'm so proud ot have a wonderful, insanely creative, beautiful sister like you! luv you so much!!
I've been on Studio 5 before, too, and it felt the same way…a little unorganized and flustered and rushed! And I counted…I said the word EXACTLY 15 times. I can't even watch it now because I just cringe at myself.
I have to say I was expecting a train wreck while watching it after reading your post. I kept waiting and waiting and waiting for a disaster, but it was awesome then awesome, then more awesome, and then it was over! Where was the train wreck?! You were beautiful, your clothes were beautiful, I understood your skirt-to-dress instructions… All fab!
Great job!
Aloha,
Charlie
What are you talking about?!?!? Are you kidding? I loved this segment! And you do not look ugly. Even with the braces you looked very cute. Believe me if I didn't think so I wouldn't have commented. I think this is just you being very hard on yourself. I know with me I critique myself very harshly but other people don't see it the same way you do. I loved the clip so please don't worry anymore about it 🙂
I thought that the segment went well. I learned how to make your pleated skirt dress. Quit being so hard on yourself!
Sarah! You were absolutely amazing! Don't be so harsh on yourself please! You looked so pretty and your outfit was perfect!
I thought you did awesome!! I learned about your blog from watching you on the show, I love all your fun ideas, so inspiring! I'm about to start the pleated dress, hope it turns out, so excited! Thanks again!!
I know you said you didn't want sympathy so I'm going to be as objective as I can. I watched it and thought it was great. I thought you were genuine and personable. You also showcased your talent very well. No worries! It was just great. Hope you have a great weekend with your family.
It was great!!!! Really it was!!!
I loved you and your ideas… your time was short on the show but enough to catch my attention! i am a follower now. I would love to have you come and speak to a womens group and you can have all the time you want!
I loved it! I thought you looked really natural and (might I say) super-duper clever and crafty!
Sarah, I just watched the tv short and you were wonderful! You were cute, well-spoken, and did a great job demonstrating at the end. And I'm definitely not saying that for pity. It's just the truth. Good work – I LOVE your blog and can't wait to make some awesome clothes!
They say we are our own worst critics & this is a perfect example. You did a great job, looked fabulous, and showcased some wonderful examples of your creative work. I think you are the only one on earth who could have found flaws in that appearance, so if you cannot see how great it was with your own eyes, just know that to everyone else's, you aced it in all respects. Everyone feels bad about themselves from time to time, but just know you are blessed with great talent, looks, & a wonderful loving family to surround you with comfort during those moments when your inner critic gets the best of you.
As I was reading this post, the first thing I thought was "I couldn't disagree more!" I didn't watch the clip because I was watching the show and it's how I found your blog. I thought you were adorable (so absolutely, beautiful) and I really really love your ideas, I've been thinking of them all weekend and can't wait to do a few. Of course it's nice to hear that others feel the same as I do sometimes. I really don't like to see any pictures of myself. I keep taking pictures hoping one day I'll look different (it won't happen by the way :o) You did great! I would never be able to do what you did! I love how your hubby held you and soothed you, great hubbies are the BEST! Your babies adore you too, which really, can make all of the worry wash away. Sorry about the book I just wrote, I just wanted to say "Hi!" and I really love your blog! Your awesome!
I know you don't want compliments or sympathy or anything, but I just watched the interview and I honestly think it was great! You looked beautiful! You came across as very natural, calm and collected and if you hadn't said so, I never would have guessed that you didn't know what she was going to ask you. I love the projects you showed and I especially want to try the pleated skirt transformation! You're very creative and inspiring. I discovered you and your blog not long ago and I love it! It's okay to have bad days. That's when we can be grateful to our family and friends for reminding us that we're beautiful, clever and inspiring even if we can't see it ourselves. xo
oh Sarah, you were so sweet and natural! and you looked just STUNNING the entire time! I thought the whole clip flowed really well and it was so obvious the whole time how awesome you are! I hope tons of people see that and come to your blog so they can see your awesome DIY stuff cause you ROCK!
you ladies are so so sweet, thank you, thank you. I got teary eyed reading most of your kind thoughts!
xo,
Sarah
I was on studio 5 modeling Hapari swimming suits a while back and I felt SO DUMB!! The camera was on me with a normal face, then it went away for two seconds, someone told me to smile, the camera came back and I had a HUGE smile! I felt so dumb. But by the way you made yours sound, I totally thought it was going to be terrible. You were DARLING!! You don't know me but I seriously adore you. I'm dying to be done with school just so I can have time to transform clothes! I talk about your blog ALL the time to my husband. So exciting for him to hear about clothes I'm sure. :p Seriously, keep it up. I get so excited when I see you've updated your blog.
xoxo
Amanda
You were DARLING!! I wasn't able to watch Studio 5 live, but thanks to TiVo I just saw your segment. You were adorable and brilliant. They better have you on more often. I'm totally inspired by your work. Thank you for sharing your talents with the rest of us.
You're being way too hard on yourself-you were wonderful! Being on live TV is difficult enough, but you were poised and polished. Amazing job!
I'm inspired every time I come to your blog. You are so amazing with your gorgeous and quick Anthro knock offs. I just watched your segment and thought you did fine. Your designs are fabulous, your explaination was quick and perfect. Great job! Don't beat yourself up. So, so fantastic!
I love that line where you said, "I know I sound vain but I guess I'm vain," cause I know exactly how you feel sometimes. It made me laugh out loud. Then I got all teary when you wrote a few hours later about turning your focus outward because nothing ever comes from only focusing on ourselves. I love you so much and I'm glad you put it all out there on the internet for everyone to read because we ALL feel like this. Now after all that, you know that I think you were divine on the show and I don't need to go into that. 🙂
I hate those days, and thankfully I have a husband like yours who is there to talk sense and hold me and make me feel better.
Honestly, I came to your blog after watching the segment and was SHOCKED to read how you were feeling. I thought you were exquisite! Keep up the good work and thank you for continuing to inspire me!
I thought you were amazing. You looked confident and beautiful and charming. Thoroughly engaging and definitely inspirational.
We are always so hard on ourselves and wouldn't dream of saying to others the things we say about ourselves, but we can't all be wrong!
And you were super brave to go on TV. I couldn't and I used to do training and presentations for a living! I'd rather stick pins in my eyes.
I finally got around to watching the video as I normally catch up on my blog reading on my phone. You did a fantastic job! Even with only that minute to do your demo… you rocked it! Good job, Sarah!
Aloha.
Wow! Sarah, I am SOO impressed. You did so well under pressure and the time constraint, never once stumbling over words, and looking so cool, calm and collected the entire time! Thanks for the inspirational alterations and refashions. I should head to the sewing room right now. 🙂
Far too harsh on yourself! We are all our biggest critics, and I'd be the same if I had to watch myself back on tv (I am always reluctant to have my photo taken), and it's not about vanity. It's about a lack of self confidence. And we all have days like that.
I think you came across extrememly well. Looked like you did it every single day of your life. you did not seem nervous, you spoke clearly, and you looked lovely. Honestly. Loved it when you showed how to cut into the skirt, you were straight in there with the scissors and explained it so well and so clearly.
I've only just found your blog this week, and I LOVE it. You are such an inspiration, and I love your attitude, to just give it a try and make changes to clothes. It's fantastic.
Hope you are having a good weekend, and that you are feeling better about the tv thing. You so shouldn't have any doubts about it.
x