Life is Beautiful

Motherhood, Sewing, Family

my youngest is turning two tomorrow

~ Etc.

*i’m guest posting at Ucreate today!
so if you want to see what i’ll posting here on monday, go take a look!

i took these pictures yesterday.
my favs are of her in her Korean traditional dress.

ah.  why do i always get more bitter than sweet every year on my kids’ birthdays? my sweet-spirited, cuddly, caring, sharing, thoughful, beautiful little ariana is turning two tomorrow on the 12th.  and my heart is literally aching and hurting physically as i type.  i might even be tearing up right now but i’m never gonna tell. 😉  isn’t it funny how your heart can literally ache and hurt?
oh how i wish there were pause buttons in life so i can stop from moment to moment to cherish life without realizing that every second is ticking away and being gone away as i’m thinking that thought.  does that make sense?
having kids forces you to be more selfless whether you like it or not.  having kids makes the world so much more beautiful as you learn to see the world in their eyes.  having kids fill you up with so much joy and complete satisfaction in life.  before i had kids, i’d go to bed thinking, ‘what have i done today? did i do anything good? anything worthwhile? did i serve someone today or make someone more happy because of my actions?” i no longer ask those questions anymore.  because i know it’ll be a yes to every one of them.  i go to bed every night feeling fulfilled and proud of myself for not wasting the day or not doing any good.  everyday i know i did the most important mission in my life which is being a mother.
and ariana, that is all because of you and your sister. thank you for letting me be your mother.  i could never ask for a better gift from God.  i feel like my love for you grows so rapidly, every single milisecond, that my heart is always trying to catch up with it.  you are so lovable.  you are so amazing.  you are so beautiful.  you are my baby.  thank you.  i owe my life to you for all the things you’ve done for me.  so happy 2nd birthday my sweet lil’ ana! love you forever and ever and some more. 

called to serve

~ Etc.

jay’s little brother mike volunteered to serve a 2 yr. mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints  and got his mission call, which is an envelope and a letter saying where you’d go.  (it could be anywhere in the world)  so we gathered with his friends and family for that exciting moment.
and he’s called to serve in Hong Kong, China!  as he read his destination, everyone ooh’ed and aah’ed and cheered.  plus his parents, uncles, aunts, and his grandparents served there so it makes it even more exciting! and it reminded me of when i got my mission call and i read out loud, “San Bernardino, California.”  no one really ooh’ed or aah’ed, it was more like, “ohhhh…..(and then silence).” hahaha since it was like right next to Utah and kind of anti-climatic.  but i wouldn’t have changed it to anywhere else.  it was the perfect destimation for me.
i often think, “man, our church really must be true.” when i see bunch of 19 yr. old boys volunteer willingly to serve for 2 yrs. and be willing to go anywhere they get called to go.  i mean, 19 yrs. old! that’s at their prime age of partying and having fun but instead they choose to go knock on random doors to share with them what they know to be true and what makes them happy.  i know mike will be a great missionary and we’re so proud of you mike!
and the last picture is of adi putting on a performance for everyone.  that’s her “little stage” as she made me play bunch of youtube videos of disney songs as she danced and sang for everyone.  she is so cute!

Proud to have my gurls!

~ Etc.

Everyone always ask if and when we’re goina try to have a boy since we got two girls…and we tell em’ we don’t know – mostly because I think if we do, we’ll have another girl. Nothing wrong with that, but I had to snicker when I saw this on a friends blog and think that inevitably I’m doomed to be just like this dad in a couple years anyways:

ps: my wifey’s pretty awesome possum!

I’m about to go crazy!!!

~ Etc.

I’m so tired/frustrated/angry right now!!!  my youngest daughter ana has been crying and screaming for a little over 3 hrs. now.  it’s past 1 a.m!!!   i’m heartbroken that she’s been crying for so long, her poor little throat and how red and puffy her eyes must be…  i feel terrible for the renters in our basement who can hear it all, who happens to sleep right below ana’s bedroom, i feel helpless because i lied down with her for 2 hrs. pretending to be asleep, hoping she would follow my lead and fall asleep but no- everytime i opened my eyes she would be starring right back at me with her eyes wide open, so i got frustrated and just put her in her crib and walked out of her bedroom-thus causing her to be screaming and crying for over 3 hrs., i feel more stressed that it doesn’t bother my husband one bit, that our child is crying and screaming, nor does he feel bad for the renters because he says, “there’s nothing you can do so why stress?” ARGH. that makes me stress more. 
i have no idea why she’s all the sudden like this the past few weeks.  she’s been such a good sleeper most of her life, we have a schedule of bathing, praying, reading books,singing, and i do this shadow puppet show for her, then we spin around in the rocking chair, then i hold and kiss her and tell her how much i love her, and put her in her crib and without a cry or a fuss, she would lie down in her crib, i close the door and we don’t hear a sound from her the whole night until about 12 hrs. later.  she was such a doll so what happened?  i don’t think she’s teething, is she scared of the dark? i tried the night light but she still cried.  is it the terrible two’s? she’s turning two in a week.  maybe they just get really clingry and needy at this age?  last night i slept with her on the floor, right next to her crib because she didn’t want to go in her crib.  but i need my alone time, i can’t go to bed with her every night! i NEED my alone time when the kids go to sleep, the only time in the day when i can do something for myself and do whatever i want to do(after washing the dishes and cleaning that is), and not worry about the kids.  so what do i do??? and do you get so angry and frustrated too when you hear your kids scream and cry for a loooong time? i don’t swear but oh boy do i want to say some swear words out loud like every 2 minutes!

sledding

~ Etc.

adi’s been wanting to go sledding ever since winter started
and we finally got the chance to do it this past weekend
with our neighborhood friends.
towards the end adi was grumpy because she wanted hot chocolate right then and now and ana was grumpy because i gave her a piece of candy and she wanted to hold another one in her other hand.  when it comes to treats, she has to have two in everything so that she could have one in one hand and one on her other hand.  always.
but it was fun anyway.
and tonight adi said the family prayer before bedtime.
an excerpt from her prayer;
“we thank ana for playing dora and boots with me,
and we thank mommy for her stinky butt butt.”
say WHAT?
are you sure you wern’t talking about daddy?
i couldn’t help but burst out laughing in the middle of the prayer.
i better help her to say other things about me
so she doesn’t embarrass me in public.
…if she hasn’t done it already which i don’t know about…hmm…