Life is Beautiful

Motherhood, Sewing, Family

I am one burned out mama.

~ Etc.

Count yourself lucky that you weren’t around this grumpy mama yesterday.  It’s funny how you are doing so well, feeling like you’re doing pretty well with this whole motherhood thing, when it smacks you in the head and you realize, you are burned out to a crisp.  
After a long, long day, well, more like a long several months of filling everyone else’s canteen except for mine, I wanted nothing but peace and quiet, to relax and just be alone in my own home.  But that wasn’t possible, and I finally lost it when we were eating dinner and Jay had stepped out for a short while and the girls got in a fight.  I sat at the dinner table yelling, “I just want to eat dinner in peace for 5 minutes, is that too much to ask?  I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t cook, I can’t clean, I can’t poo, I can’t do anything without getting interrupted!!!  Someone always wants me to fix something, get something, refill something, reach something, wipe something, clean something, go do this, go do that, or get in a fight, or wants my constant attention, AHHHH, this is too much!!!  I just want peace for 5 minutes, without anybody asking me to do something for them!!!”  After I whined like a little girl, I plopped on the ground and cried like one too.  Then my two girls came and hugged me and cried with me.  Then Jay came and wrapped his huge arms around all three of us and cried sarcastically and mockingly, which then made me laugh for a short while, but then I quickly resumed back to my crying episode one, and two.  Three might happen any minute, yo better hide yo kids!
All three of them left me alone the rest of the night(well, not really, the girls kept coming to me saying, “mommy, look!  mommy, can you…” then I hear Jay in the background, “girls, come here! don’t talk to mom right now!”…smart guy), but I’m still burned out, I just can’t shake it off!  I’ve been telling Jay that he should take the girls on a weekend camping trip while I stay at home all by myself(honestly, no other vacation sounds better than for me to stay all alone at my house, is that weird?), so maybe after my episode last night, he’ll really take me up on it? (hint, hint, eh hem, cough cough!)
What do you do when you feel burned out? 

Family camping.

~ Etc.

Last Friday morning, we went to go see the much anticipated movie, Brave.  It was really good, and the girls loved it too.  Then when we got in the car, we surprised the girls and told them that we were going camping, like right now!  Their response wasn’t as exciting as we expected(just like when we surprised them with a puppy last Christmas), but we think it’s because they’re still too little and it’s just too much for them to take at once.  That better be it or else it’s always going to be so anti-climatic when we surprise them!  But once it sank in, they did get really excited since they’ve been asking us to go camping for the last month or so.  
We had originally planned to go for one night but it was so much fun, we ended up staying for two nights.  And even after two nights of camping, the girls didn’t want to go home(they said they wanted to stay forever!), and Achilles absolutely loved it too, so I think it’s safe to say this won’t be the last camping we’ll do this summer.

5 year anniversary date.

~ Etc.

We celebrated our 5 year anniversary by going to the temple a few days before our anniversary day.     We also had plans to go to Park City that weekend, just the two of us, to go zip lining and go out to eat, but the weather ended up being very cold and windy so it had to be cancelled.  I originally wanted just the two of us to go on a trip somewhere far and exotic but my parents being older and not too keen on watching them for a few days, that choice was not even an option for us.  At first I was a little whiny  and thought, man, if we didn’t have kids, we could have gone to anywhere we wanted!  It’s our 5 year anniversary, this is a big deal! When will we ever be able to go on a trip just us two, maybe in 15 years?  But then another thought quickly came to my mind which was, yes, you do give up a lot when you have kids, but you gain it back and so, so much more in many other ways.  I then reprimanded myself for thinking selfishly because the truth is, having two irresistible, smart, funny little girls is worth way more than going on numerous exciting trips with just me and my husband.  I’ll happily take our two girls over exciting trips just the two of us any day.  

Modern family.

~ Etc.

Did you know that my daughter Ariana plays Lily in Modern Family?

Okay, just kidding!  But I always thought she looked awfully a lot like her.  And apparently, I’m not the only one because I’ve had several strangers tell me the same thing.
What do you think?