i thought i should update you on how i’m doing. i’m doing worse than ever. i can’t stop crying…
just kidding! hahaha, i’m back to my normal self again!(i sure got you didn’t i? π do you ever feel like you’re bi-polar ever since you became a mother? i sure do. the highs are so high and the lows are so low. but the lows are very short and the highs are very long. i’m so grateful for that. i felt better after i blogged and vented my fire(thank you for reading), and after i closed my eyes and didn’t move and just soaked in the peaceful quietness for a full minute. thank you so much for all your comments, ο»Ώit’s your comments that keeps me blogging and i’m so humbled to know that you care about this little me enough to take the time to give me wonderful advice/support. there sure are so many wonderful, wise mothers/women out there.
i was talking to my husband later that night after my venting about how i think satan attacks you stronger on the important times. especially on mothers because he knows how important and sacred the job is. when i served a mission for our church, the times when i felt most sick physically or tired, that the last thing i wanted to do was walk around and knock on doors of strangers, were the times when i found the best people who were receptive and open to the gospel. he knocks you harder right before something wonderful is about to happen. my oldest is almost four and she’ll be in school 1/2 the day in two years. oh, how bitter that day will be and how i’ll long for today. every year on her birthday i say, “she only has 17,16,15 more years until she enters college and leaves me!” well, on her birthday this year, there will only be 13 years left. oh i literally tear up everytime i think about that. so satan knows these two years before she enters 1st grade is very crucial and i think he’s working extra hard to bring me down. well, that ain’t gonna happen!
i’m grateful that i love being a mother 99% of the time.
i’m grateful for those 1% because it makes me appreciate the 99% more.
i’m also grateful that those 1% makes me nothing but a stronger, more determined, refreshed mother.
i’m grateful for a husband who helps so much with cleaning and watching the kids. he is a life saver.
i’m grateful for my two beautiful angels that God has entrusted me with. i’m grateful for their innocence, love for life, health, intelligence, and humor. they posess everything that is beautiful on this earth.
and i’m grateful for God, my sweet, loving father who gives me responsibilities to make me stronger, wise, selfless, and giving. to shape me up to be the person he needs me to be. he is so sweet, i literally tear up everytime i think about how sweet, kind, and loving he is.
p.s: a cute little story that happened yesterday, my two girls kept fighting so i put them in the same room and locked the door. i’ve never locked the door on time-out but i didn’t want them to open it right back so as i closed the door, i heard my oldest say while crying, “no, mommy! don’t lock the door!” but i did anyway and as i started to walk away from the door i heard her cry out, “oh heavenly father! mommy locked the door!!! can you come open it please?” i couldn’t help but laugh as i opened the door. what else was i suppose to do after that prayer? it was just so darn cute. i chuckled the rest of the day thinking about it.
summer day a few weeks ago while telling them a funny story
Ice Pandora says
Keep strong mom ^__^
I'm glad the low ones only are short periods and the high ones utterly long ones π
xx
Erica Louise says
You are, after all, only human =) Glad you're feeling better, I have those 1% days too sometimes x
Carrie Taylor says
Whew, glad you made it through that one! Stay strong! Love her prayer too, so cute! Shows you are doing what you can to raise your girls to love Heavenly Father which is why Satan attacks you the hardest.
Mrsink says
I meant to comment on your last post, but then had my own melt down day and forgot (haha!) I love how you express yourself and I totally feel the same way. Since becoming a mom, whew! I feel bipolar sometimes too! I finally realized that when things are really good, THAT is the time when I need to take a second and do something for myself. Otherwise if I wait until I'm rock bottom, it's not really time for myself, it's just recovery time. Anyway, I love your blog and that prayer your daughter prayed made me laugh out lout. haha! SO CUTE!! Glad you're doing better. π
Rachel says
I am happy you are feeling better. I think I am a little bipolar, even though I am not a mother.
Cherisse says
I'm kinda in the same boat as you…at home raising young kids and trying to do everything possible to make your home a heaven on earth. Yeah, the other day I pretty much gave up and didn't really do much and just thought "wow, I wish I could just take care of myself like I used to." However, among the busy life as mom I do know it is first me that has to improve and not my kids and I need to do all I can to be a better mom NOW! Having a third c-section has really taken a lot out of me and I've oh so slowly been trying to recover. Just like you said though he is working extra hard to bring us down in these early years in raising our children!…thanks for the reminder and extra boost!
SupaFlowaPowa says
hello! found your blog through crafty searches… love it! stay strong! thanks for sharing – it's a good reminder – i'm a new mom but i feel it too.. it just comes and goes and you just have to remember how sacred the responsibility is and how super rewarding it is!
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caitlin says
Being a mother is the hardest job in the world!! I totally feel the highs and lows, I really like how you put it all into words though. You need to be greatful for what we are given, we wouldnt be trusted with the job if He thought we could not do it! Btw the pic of your dd's is sooo cute!
Sarah says
Thanks for your support ladies!