I am almost done with the whole box, I did share 4 of them with my family so I didn’t eat the whole thing! 😉
are those madeleines crumbs on my sweatpants? yes, yes it is.
I stay up way past the bedtime I should adhere to. My average bedtime is 1:00 a.m. Sometimes 2 a.m, sometimes even 3 a.m. I know I should be going to bed and I know in the morning I will regret it, but it’s a vicious cycle I cannot seem to break. It’s when I bust out all my hidden snacks such as these madeleines cookies or fancy chocolates(because my girls don’t appreciate the difference between fancy chocolates and cheap chocolates, so I don’t feel bad sharing my fancy ones, is that bad?), or eat Korean ramen that I don’t let them eat except once in awhile because it’s unhealthy, so I eat them late at night when the girls are in bed and and I don’t have to share. I also love this time I get with my husband, but I stay up a little longer after he goes to bed because I need my alone time too. I love, love, love being alone. I crave being alone and this is how I get re-energized and recharged.
It’s also the time when I let our dog Achilles inside the house to hang out with me, feeling guilty that I’ve neglected him in the day because I’ve been crazy busy taking care of three kids which is still kicking my butt. I give him a little snack and he hangs out by my feet while I watch t.v or use the computer, but mostly I watch all my tivo’ed shows. You’d think I would do something useful and productive but no, I do the most unproductive things during my only free time I get. I wish I had the energy or the desire to sew or tidy up or read a book or study something, but those are the last things I want to do at the end of the day when all my energy has been spent and all I want to do is just plop down and be unproductive. To wind down from my hectic and chaotic and beautiful life from the day and enjoy this precious time when no one is asking me to do something for them. No one is yelling out, “Mommy!”, “Mommy!”, “Mommy?” every few minutes or seconds. But time goes by ever so speedily and by the time I feel recharged, I look at the time and it is way past my bedtime.
Any other night owls out there like me? Maybe we should form a club and motivate each other to do productive things together. We would get so much done!
