I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed and stressed the past 2 days about having a second baby. Adalie has been even more clingy and needy than she already is which I never thought possible. I can’t even go to the bathroom without her crying and clinging onto my legs trying to get on my lap. So I think to myself, “Adi needs my attention equal to like 4 babies, how in the world am I going to have another baby? I don’t get any time for myself now, how will it be with two? How will I even get out of the house without Jay when even just now it’s hard enough?”
Every single mother and I mean it when I say every single mother I’ve talked to who’s had a second kid when their first one was just one has told me how difficult and hard it was the first few years. One told me she wanted to run away. My friend told me her mom told her she wanted a divorce from her kids but not her husband. One other friend told me her mom just dropped her off at her grandma’s everyday while her mom took care of her little brother because she couldn’t do it. I wish my mom would be here but she won’t. I will only have my brother Joseph here, even Jay’s 2 siblings who are here will move by the time my baby’s born. So instead of dwelling on my fear of the unknown and almost hyperventilating at the thought of having two kids under two, let me think on the positive side and make a list of why having two girls under two will be great.
-We don’t need to buy another car seat or stroller which is pink and very girly, not to mention clothes. blankets, bedding and so much more which will save so much money.
-I’ll pop out two kids this fast and then for a long long time not worry and enjoy my non-pregnant body.
-Adalie will LOVE having a little sister so close to her age. Every two sisters I’ve talked to that’s one year apart has LOVED having each other and are very close. This one makes me feel so much better…this is the best reason out of all.
-When they’re older, they’ll share clothes which will save SOOOO much money! We all know how expensive girls are and how they love to shop. 🙂
-Having one is so fun so having two will double the fun!
-Despite it being so hard and challenging, it’ll make me that much of a better person and help me become more Christ-like in every way.
-My heart has been stretched so much to encompass the love I have for Adalie, my heart will be even bigger to fill the love I have for my second child.
-They’re so close in age, we don’t need to wait until the other one is old enough to go on trips like Disney Land for both of them to enjoy.
-I can do fun activities with my two girls like cooking night, craft night, etc. and not worry about entertaining two kids separately if I had a boy.
-They will always rely on each other and have a best friend. Maybe, just maybe Adalie will be clingy and needy to her sister instead of me! haha I doubt it but I can hope…
-If my second daughter is clingy and needy like Adalie (oh boy…) then they can cling to each other. 😀
-I can’t imagine my life without Adalie, and I know once the baby is out and I hold her in my arms, I’ll be so in love and won’t be able to imagine my life without her.
-I’ll keep watching John n Kate plus 8. That always makes me feel so much better.
The End.
