same same-as Adi would say
Adi put make-up all by herself and I said look pretty! and this is what she gives me. haha
Jay’s sweet 16.
So this past week I was alone to take care of the kids without Jay. I was pretty scared and thought it was going to be like Korea all over again but surprisingly it wasn’t that bad at all! I had forgotten that it’s a lot of work being a wife too. I also realized watching my two kids is not hard at all if I’m just “watching” them such as playing with them, supervising to make sure they’re safe, etc. It’s when I need to do something like clean the house, cook dinner, run errands, take a shower and get ready that gets difficult. So since Jay cleaned the entire house right before he left(thank you!), and I don’t have to make a fancy meal every night and make sure the house is clean before he comes home, it’s pretty nice and laid back. Well as laid back as having 2 kids under 2 can be. π But this was only for one week so how do single mothers do it? Wow. I have so much more respect for single mothers out there. I’m so glad he’s coming home tomorrow because right now I’m so bored out of my mind! The first few days were nice since I had my alone time but then that gets old and bored. (yes it’s gramatically incorrect but it rhymes) Things I’ve been doing at night when I’m by myself:
-camping on facebook and updating my status way more than the norm. Jay thinks updating status is dumb haha. It is pretty narcissistic I have to admit but sometimes u just wanna brag about how cute your lil’ kids are!
-making a plain shirt into a fabulous shirt. I’ll post pics later.
-watching all my Tivo’ed T.V shows. Do any of you guys watch the Modern Family? It’s hilarious. I told Jay it was funny and he watched one with me and totally down played it like, “it’s alright, it’s not that great.” and then a few weeks after he finally confessed that he’s been watching every episode online at work. Ha!
-blogging. yes, a big surprise.
-reading baby wise.
-snacking like the crazy snack pack that I am. for example: dipping chocolate covered macadmia nuts in nutella. more like scooping than dipping. and marshmallow popcorn. not a big fan.
-looking at our wedding pictures. I finally got the CD today so I’ll have to post some.
-going through my phone book from A to Z to see who I can call or text to bug.
Yeah I’m so wild and crazy.
I just got back from my friend’s wedding and I drove down with my friend Natalie but the ring ceremony had ended right when we got there. I felt terrible for the bride and the groom and also Natalie. I looked for a babysitter starting like a week ago and got things packed and ready since early this morning so that we could be on time but with kids, it’s almost impossible to be on time! I had to get ready (taking a 2 min. shower while Ariana is grasping the side of the tub crying because she wants mommy and Adalie also crying and pulling the shower curtains every 5 secs. because she wanted to shower too), Adalie lost her juice cup, make sure I had extra diapers, clothes, food, snacks, lotion, bibs, make green curry to take to the sitters since I like to feed my babysitters, put socks on them, put shoes on them, sweaters, all these things are easy things but like 5o things added together takes up so much time. So anywho and by the time we dropped them off and gave short instructions to the sitters, it was later than we had planned thus being 15 mins. late. But the ring ceremony was apparently 15 mins. long and we missed it. π Can you tell I’m bummed I missed it? But that’s just life with kids. Your priorities get moved down way to the bottom and your kids’ priorities become number one. You basically lose your freedom. Motherhood is getting a little harder now because Ariana is crawling everywhere which means literally every second supervision and she just wants to be held all the time! If I move literally a foot away from her, she starts crying and crawls right up to me and gets up on her kness and hugs my legs. When I take another step, she cries again and crawls to me and hugs my legs again. It’s kinda cute actually but very hard to do anything around the house. I’ll have to videotape it sometime to show you.
Oh and I think I’m done having kids. I told Jay a week ago that I am really done. In the past
when I got overwhelmed being a mother of two, I would tell him I was done having kids but then right after I would say, “well, we’ll see. I want boys.” But now that I say “I’m done having kids.” And then I don’t say the latter, Jay knows I’m serious. And he wants more kids now that I say I’m done! I think two is very manageable(husband watches one, you watch the other) and financially friendly in this economic crisis and I want to live my own life too and finish education and pursue my career goals and my dreams. (I want to be a billionaire and set up elementary schools around third world countries that provide at very low cost education, lunch, medical and dental needs.) Yeah it’s a big dream. And there are so many other things I want to do. NOW. So two is good, I popped ’em out fast while young and now I can do stuff for me. BUT at the wedding today I talked to my HS friends’ mother who has 12 kids(yeah I know) and I realized deep inside of me I still want more kids. DARN IT!!! As I was telling her how I loved growing up in a big family and it might be more fun than having a small family, and how I read studies about how kids who grow up with many siblings grow up less selfish, more sharing, better social skills, and generally happier, I realized I do want a big family. And my friend Amy had 2 dreams recently about me having a boy! It’s crazier because she dreamt about Adalie when she was still in my belly! How come she has dreams about my future kids and I don’t as their own mother? I see something very wrong with that. π So even though I have NO free time, no ME time, NO sleep time, and I never had bags under my eyes or dark circles before now, YES I still want more kids. AHHH!!!
And I’m babbling on cuz I’m bored and you don’t wanna hear it. So I’m out. Peace.
How I get joy out of motherhood
LeeRae says
Sarah! close up of Adi's picture look so much like you! It's a mini version of Sarah~ She looks so cute π