Life is Beautiful

Motherhood, Sewing, Family

Dear J.Crew

~ Etc.

Dear J.Crew,
My friend Carol has forever been talking about how you have THE cutest clothes for kids so I finally looked at you and it was truly love at first sight. I’m so in love with you.  I would totally buy my girls’ clothes from you in a heartbeat, EXCEPT for the fact that your prices are ridiculous. Who would pay $128.00 for a little toddler’s skirt? Seriously? And $118. for a pair of shoes(but so cute, might I add) that my little girl will wear for 4 months??? Why are your prices so ridiculously high? I used to shop from you a lot in Jr. High and HS until your prices sky rocketed out of nowhere. Why did you do that?    Especially while the quality is going down?  Now I have to just look at you longingly and day dream about the day when I can afford you. I’m sorry if I sound bitter. Maybe I sound bitter because I just can’t afford you right now. But even when that day comes when I can afford it, I would rather spend $10 on a cute skirt elsewhere and spend the rest of the $118 I have left on something like… helping the poor?  My girl’s college fund?  I can instead save the lives of 12 innocent, sweet children in Africa whom can’t afford mosquito nets and die from malaria everyday.
Unless you tell me you charge this ridiculous amount of money from rich people so that you can help the poor and donate the money to the needy, I don’t understand your motive and I think you’re very greedy. 
Sincerely, Me
P.S: I still love you and will forgive you if you lower your prices. Just sayin’.

Bored so hear me out

~ Etc.

same same-as Adi would say

Adi put make-up all by herself and I said look pretty! and this is what she gives me. haha
Jay’s sweet 16.

So this past week I was alone to take care of the kids without Jay. I was pretty scared and thought it was going to be like Korea all over again but surprisingly it wasn’t that bad at all! I had forgotten that it’s a lot of work being a wife too. I also realized watching my two kids is not hard at all if I’m just “watching” them such as playing with them, supervising to make sure they’re safe, etc. It’s when I need to do something like clean the house, cook dinner, run errands, take a shower and get ready that gets difficult. So since Jay cleaned the entire house right before he left(thank you!), and I don’t have to make a fancy meal every night and make sure the house is clean before he comes home, it’s pretty nice and laid back. Well as laid back as having 2 kids under 2 can be. 😉 But this was only for one week so how do single mothers do it? Wow. I have so much more respect for single mothers out there. I’m so glad he’s coming home tomorrow because right now I’m so bored out of my mind! The first few days were nice since I had my alone time but then that gets old and bored. (yes it’s gramatically incorrect but it rhymes) Things I’ve been doing at night when I’m by myself:
-camping on facebook and updating my status way more than the norm. Jay thinks updating status is dumb haha. It is pretty narcissistic I have to admit but sometimes u just wanna brag about how cute your lil’ kids are!
-making a plain shirt into a fabulous shirt. I’ll post pics later.
-watching all my Tivo’ed T.V shows. Do any of you guys watch the Modern Family? It’s hilarious. I told Jay it was funny and he watched one with me and totally down played it like, “it’s alright, it’s not that great.” and then a few weeks after he finally confessed that he’s been watching every episode online at work. Ha!
-blogging. yes, a big surprise.
-reading baby wise.
-snacking like the crazy snack pack that I am. for example: dipping chocolate covered macadmia nuts in nutella. more like scooping than dipping. and marshmallow popcorn. not a big fan.
-looking at our wedding pictures. I finally got the CD today so I’ll have to post some.
-going through my phone book from A to Z to see who I can call or text to bug.
Yeah I’m so wild and crazy.

I just got back from my friend’s wedding and I drove down with my friend Natalie but the ring ceremony had ended right when we got there. I felt terrible for the bride and the groom and also Natalie. I looked for a babysitter starting like a week ago and got things packed and ready since early this morning so that we could be on time but with kids, it’s almost impossible to be on time! I had to get ready (taking a 2 min. shower while Ariana is grasping the side of the tub crying because she wants mommy and Adalie also crying and pulling the shower curtains every 5 secs. because she wanted to shower too), Adalie lost her juice cup, make sure I had extra diapers, clothes, food, snacks, lotion, bibs, make green curry to take to the sitters since I like to feed my babysitters, put socks on them, put shoes on them, sweaters, all these things are easy things but like 5o things added together takes up so much time. So anywho and by the time we dropped them off and gave short instructions to the sitters, it was later than we had planned thus being 15 mins. late. But the ring ceremony was apparently 15 mins. long and we missed it. 🙁 Can you tell I’m bummed I missed it? But that’s just life with kids. Your priorities get moved down way to the bottom and your kids’ priorities become number one. You basically lose your freedom. Motherhood is getting a little harder now because Ariana is crawling everywhere which means literally every second supervision and she just wants to be held all the time! If I move literally a foot away from her, she starts crying and crawls right up to me and gets up on her kness and hugs my legs. When I take another step, she cries again and crawls to me and hugs my legs again. It’s kinda cute actually but very hard to do anything around the house. I’ll have to videotape it sometime to show you.

Oh and I think I’m done having kids. I told Jay a week ago that I am really done. In the past

when I got overwhelmed being a mother of two, I would tell him I was done having kids but then right after I would say, “well, we’ll see. I want boys.” But now that I say “I’m done having kids.” And then I don’t say the latter, Jay knows I’m serious. And he wants more kids now that I say I’m done! I think two is very manageable(husband watches one, you watch the other) and financially friendly in this economic crisis and I want to live my own life too and finish education and pursue my career goals and my dreams. (I want to be a billionaire and set up elementary schools around third world countries that provide at very low cost education, lunch, medical and dental needs.) Yeah it’s a big dream. And there are so many other things I want to do. NOW. So two is good, I popped ’em out fast while young and now I can do stuff for me. BUT at the wedding today I talked to my HS friends’ mother who has 12 kids(yeah I know) and I realized deep inside of me I still want more kids. DARN IT!!! As I was telling her how I loved growing up in a big family and it might be more fun than having a small family, and how I read studies about how kids who grow up with many siblings grow up less selfish, more sharing, better social skills, and generally happier, I realized I do want a big family. And my friend Amy had 2 dreams recently about me having a boy! It’s crazier because she dreamt about Adalie when she was still in my belly! How come she has dreams about my future kids and I don’t as their own mother? I see something very wrong with that. 🙂 So even though I have NO free time, no ME time, NO sleep time, and I never had bags under my eyes or dark circles before now, YES I still want more kids. AHHH!!!

And I’m babbling on cuz I’m bored and you don’t wanna hear it. So I’m out. Peace.

How I get joy out of motherhood

I miss J.T. (and I don’t mean Justin Timberlake)

~ Etc.

Sorry for the cheezy title. While we were dating I used to tell Jay I thought JT was hot and he would always say, “I’m right here. Get it? Jay Tyau? (*dorky laugh*)”

Anywho we had a nice b-day for Jay. Uncle Colby offered to babysit while we went on a date, he is the best! Thanks so much Colby. I had fun stuff prepared but Jay really wanted to go to the temple that day(whoa-yes I’m talking about Jay Tyau that you all know) so we went and did a session instead and it was soooooo nice. I love the temple. We made goals to definitely go more often.

I miss Jay. I even miss his random comments he makes to me that could be either taken as offensive or flattering. Some things he’s said to me are:

-“You look like you’re VERY high maintenance and materialistic but you’re actually very low maintenance and not that materialistic.” (Oh, thanks…?)

-Sarah: “I want to be rich.” Jay:”You should be a stripper. I bet you’ll make BANK!!”

-“You make a better wife than you’re a pretty wife.” (…so you don’t think I’m pretty?)

I’m sure there are more but that’s all I can think of for now.

This is a video of Adalie being silly in her mermaid costume. It’s a little long so I won’t be offended if you fast foward. I know only mothers can watch their kids do nothing or everything and be totally entertained.. 😉 oh and you get to hear both Jay and me sing. Sorry about that too.

Happy B-day to my Husband

~ Etc.


My dad always says to Jay, “Thanks for taming my daughter Sarah.” and Jay and I always crack up because what? taming? As if I was this wild, ferocious beast haha. I was a really good girl growing up thank you very much. 😉 I’m a good girl by myself but he makes me even better and here are some ways.
-Jay has superb credit score and being married to him has made mine better hahaha. I did have a few hundred dollar credit debt(went on my mission and it accumulated which was suppose to have been paid, blah blah blah.) but now I’m way better with my money and my spendings.
-Anyone that knew me well knows that I wasn’t the cleanest person in the world but Jay is a clean freak and he motivates me to be clean and tidy. I actually kinda like cleaning now.
-He is so patient. And it helps me realize how much patience I lack.
-He is the best daddy to our two little girls. They adore him and he makes them laugh and giggle constantly which reminds me to not take any moment for granted and to play games with them more throughout the day instead of just being tired and letting the time go by.
-He never gets mad at me. (Maybe because I never do anything to make him mad). ok that’s a big lie. But nevertheless he doesn’t get mad! And he doesn’t give me the silent treatment like I do to him when I’m mad. That is something I’m working on.
-He doesn’t try to change me. It lets me realize that in order to be happy with marriage and when you’re not satisfied with how your spouse is acting or what he/she doesn’t do or should do more of…you should try to change yourself instead so it doesn’t bother you.
-He also has a mind set of “What can I do to make my wife happy?” Instead of saying, “What can she do to make me more happy?” I know this is an excellent, very Christ-like attribute and his example reminds me to think like this instead.
-He is HOT. K, I don’t know how that makes me a better person but just wanted to throw that out there.
-He is the funniest guy I know and he makes me laugh ’till my stomach hurts everyday. And his sense of humor is rubbing off on me. I’m hilarious.
-He thinks I look most beautiful when I’m not done up, with no make-up, in just jeans and a t-shirt or sweats and hoodies. I guess it’s not that hard to please him right? It makes me focus less on my appearance and be more confident.
-He is pretty much perfect. And just being near him makes me be a better person.
Happy birthday to my husband, my one true love, my soulmate. There is nothing else I love more than you.

Can kids be anymore darn cute?

~ Etc.

even though Adalie’s coming close to the terrible two’s, she’s an angel. For three days she did the typical two yr. old tantrums like rolling on the ground screaming when I said no, screaming no no no and running away from me, being really posessive of her belongings and I said to myself, “oh no, here it starts, the terrible two’s! It really is terrible!” but fortunately it lasted 3 days and it stopped.(*knock on wood*) Sure she has her moments here and there but overall she is such a sweetheart.

Well she did make me scream in pain and cry today when she roared like a lion and wrapped her “claws” around my thigh and bit me. But that was only after Jay had chased me and pretended to bite my leg. Tsk tsk. Now that I think about it, I should’ve put Jay on time out instead of Adalie! What was I thinking! Man, these are the moments when I wish I wore the pants in the house! I could never be like my friend Amy who put her husband on time out along with her son and he actually goes to the corner and sits down until his wife tells him he can come out.

Being a mother is getting a little more hard. I didn’t realize why I’ve been so burnt out and needing my alone time or wanting to travel far away without the kids but I just realized a few days ago it’s because it is getting harder. Ariana started crawling and that means full attention to her every single second so she doesn’t bonk her head or grab something dangerous, and she’s smart enough to know and cry when I leave the room or more than 5 ft. away from her. I also realized if I had Ariana right about now when Adalie’s turning two, it would’ve made motherhood about 5.37 times easier. So even 7 months later would’ve made my life so much less exhausting! ONE ADVICE to ALL MOTHERS out there: DO NOT HAVE KIDS A YEAR APART. IT IS JUST DANG TOO HARD ON YOUR BODY AND OVERALL. Seriously. Take my advice, you don’t want to find out the hard way.

Anywho enough of my rambling. Adalie surprises me with new sentences each day. Today as she saw these pumpkin lights at the house next door, she ran up to the lights and said, “Wow! It’s so pretty!” And right after she bit me and made me cry and she was done with her time out, she ran up to me and said, “I’m sorry, honey.” Aww. A few days ago I was feeding Ariana and she pointed to baby and my chest and said, “Baby Ana…eat…boob?” Haha. It’s so fun to see her trying to link the words together. I love my kids. Her age is my favorite stage. But I’ve said that with every stage of her life. But seriously. They just get cuter and cuter.