Life is Beautiful

Motherhood, Sewing, Family

popsicles for sale

~ Etc.

our neighborhood girls were selling popsicles one day
and they were kind enough to let my girls be a part of it. 
our street doesn’t get much traffic so their main customers
were me and the neighborhood girls’ mom,
(so we made sure we gave them extra tips 😉
and they ended up eating most of the popsicles anyway. 
it reminded me of one summer long ago when my friends and i 
sold shaved ice on the side of the road.  we earned just a few
dollars more than what we spent on the ingredients but we
didn’t care, we felt like grown-ups making our own money.
we couldn’t wait to become grown-ups one day, doing the grown-up stuff
 but i wish someone had told me that being a kid is pretty cool too
and there’s no need to rush our childhood into adulthood
because we will look back on our childhood one day
and wish we could be a child again.   

will you forgive me?

~ Etc.

i haven’t had the desire to blog lately but i’m here to let you know that we arrived
safely a few days ago and we’re alive.  i can’t say i’m doing great at this very moment
 or i’d be lying, but i guess i have no reason not to be and tomorrow i will wake up just fine.
i’m just worn out today.  with my two year old testing my patience every.twenty.mins.
i thought i was a pretty dang good person before my kids turned two, before
they could talk or talk back, or give you attitude or throw huge tantrums,
but oh boy was i wrong.  i lack so much patience, it’s very disheartening.
and to be honest, i’m a little envious of my sister who works full time and
drops her kids off at daycare before she goes to work, her mil picks them up and drops
them off at her house and when she comes home, her house is clean, no messes
were made throughout the day, no need to clean up after the kids 10+ times a day
and still be messy, no need to lose patience all day long and feel like you’re about
to go crazy……………… but then again i’m not in her shoes and maybe she wishes
to stay at home sometimes too.  i think the government should give every stay at home
mother a free nanny/chef/maid don’t you?  president obama, do you hear me?
haha, that’s gotta be the most wishful thinking of the century.
but as hard as it is with my kids reminding me ever so often how much i lack as a person,
i guess i wouldn’t grow to be a better person without these challenging moments.
like today, when i was so frustrated at my lil’ one and scolded her, she ran off crying,
“mommy where are you mommy? where are you?”  and she comes back a few minutes later
saying, “are you my nice mommy?” and later today after i got frustrated with her again she said,
“mommy, i’m soweey mommy, i’m soweey.  i’m just a little baby, will you forgive me?”
aww.  
my heart melted instantly and felt so bad as i squeezed her tight and gave her endless kisses. 
she sure is a smart one, that two year old girl!
and the craziest thing of it all is, twenty minutes after i put them to sleep and had sometime
to breathe and think in peace, and especially after a crazy emotional rollercoaster day
where i lost my temper many times, i miss them like crazy and want nothing but to go
cuddle with them, squeeze their little hands and give them many kisses and
whisper in their ears, “i’m sorry baby, i’m sorry,  i’m not perfect, will you forgive me?”
but i promise mommy loves you dearly and i’m trying.  very hard.
thank you for being so loving and forgiving as i grow into the mother that you deserve.
1. beautiful palm trees 2. adi & cousin 3. mom with c. 4. visiting family 5. my cute top c/o of romwe
6. uh…i wish i knew the name of the flowers? 🙂 7. big bed + little a 8. delicious fruit tarts
9. picture taken right when we woke up to send to daddy

roadtrip.

~ Etc.

i’m going on a road trip with my mom and my two girls in a couple of days.
it’s my first time going on a roadtrip with the girls and my husband won’t be with me
 whch makes me a little nervous.  okay, a lot, my heart starts pounding really fast
whenever i think about it.  it’ll be for 12+/- hours and i really hope my girls will behave.
my plans are to give them little presents every couple of hrs. for good behavior,
downloaded bunch of new movies on the ipad, and bringing lots of snacks.
and since i have such wonderful and wise readers, i’d thought i would ask,
do you have any other advice/tips to help make this trip go smoothly?
so that we will make it to our destination without me totally losing it?  thanks.

rainy day.

~ Etc.

it was sunny all day and then it started to pour unexpectedly one day
so we grabbed our rainboots & umbrellas and splashed around in the puddles.
i love having two kids that gives me an excuse to do just that…
to splash around in the water, to be a kid again.
because i think the world is more beautiful in their eyes
and the world becomes more beautiful to me as their mother.

hey diddle diddle

~ Etc.

have you heard of the nursery rhyme hey diddle diddle?
hey diddle diddle, the cow and the fiddle,
the cow jumped over the moon,
the little dog laughed to see such sport,
and the dish ran away with the spoon.
and you know you’re the mother of the child
when you watch these two videos that are pretty much identical a dozen times
 and you still can’t decide which one is cuter so you post them both.