So I’ve been a little moody lately if you can’t tell, but the good news is that my morning sickness is gone, hooray! I’m happy most of the time but the tiniest thing will make me cry or really irritated or both. Yesterday I yelled at my daughter when she asked a sassy question for the 4th time demanding a reason why I told her she couldn’t do a certain thing, and I went to my room and cried. I felt like such a horrible mother! My patience level is down to zero and I hate it. I know I don’t have control over my emotions lately but I do have control over how I act with those emotions. It gives me no excuse to yell at my children. Oh, how I thought raising kids was hard when they were under 3 1/2 and couldn’t really voice out their feelings or opinions! At least I know my girls are very persistent and smart and dang good with their words and sure know how to use their words to debate or make me eat my own words or actions! My mom told me I was just like them, always cleverly using my words to prove my case so she’s probably smiling inside and saying it’s payback time! Later, I apologized to my daughter and told her I was sorry and how it wasn’t her fault, and even when I do yell at her, I love her and I never stop loving her. I cried while telling her that too, dang you hormones!
Happy Valentine’s everybody!