It is midnight and I am bawling my eyes out. The above photo is of Emily from The Freckled Fox resting her hands on the casket of her husband from a week ago. I have never met her and I didn’t know of her until recently when many of my blogger friends were supporting her on their social media. I just took some time to read her blog and her IG and my heart is breaking. She has 5 kids under 6. 5 precious, innocent little angels who won’t remember their daddy except to see him in photos and videos. So devastating. So sad. There are no words.
Jay and I got in a little argument today, not really a fight or even an argument really, just little bit of bickering here and there and he went to bed without giving me a kiss or saying good night like we do every night. I am feeling so guilty and regretful that here I am taking my time for granted with my husband when Emily would do anything to have one more moment with her husband. I believe as hard as it is, sad things happen to people, to all of us really, but just in different stages in our lives than others, so that we’d appreciate the good and also the time we get to have with our loved ones. To not take it for granted. If we never knew or experienced death, sadness, despair, failure, fear, disappointment, an illness, we wouldn’t appreciate life, happiness, hope, achievements, courage, perseverance, and health. The bad needs to happen in order for there to be good.
I know that if there was no death, we would all take time for granted! We’d put off apologizing to others or making mends with people. We wouldn’t savor each moment we spend with others. Emily’s courage to share her story with others is reminding me to get over silly bickering and to love more, forgive more, to let go more. As soon as I wake up tomorrow morning, I will apologize to Jay and soak up each moment I have with him. Life is fickle, we don’t know when our time with our loved ones will end.