I took my son to the Dinosaur museum today. I promised him that I’d take him last week, but it was such a crazy, hectic and busy week for me, we didn’t get to go, so I felt the mom guilt all week because if I say something to my kids(or anybody), I always keep my word and I take my words very seriously. I don’t need to promise someone anything because my word is a promise in and of itself. Anyway, I am probably being too hard on myself but I no longer feel the guilt! haha
As we entered the museum and were walking to the entrance, there was a locked door called the “Junior Paleo Lab”. Being a curious and inquisitive boy that 2 yr. old kids are, he tried to open the door but wasn’t able to open it because it was locked. He couldn’t see what was inside, and he was too short to even know there was a little window that you could see through. But I could see through the window and saw what it was. I lifted him up and he was able to look at what was inside, and satisfied and his curiosity met, he ran away to explore somewhere else.
I immediately thought about how as a parent to my 3 little kids, I know a lot more about the world and am able to look at things in a larger point of view than they can. While my kids can’t see it, I can see if something will be too dangerous, whether it’ll be good for them or not, whether it’ll be best to leave it alone or to have the door be opened to see what’s on the other side. As a 2 year old, he might get mad and not understand why he can’t see it too if I decided to not lift him up and let him see what was on the inside of the room. But what if on the other side was something that should not be seen by a 2 year old? What if it’ll be better for him that I don’t allow him the access to the view? He might get mad at me and think I am mean, but in the end, I am doing what is best for him, and I am doing it only out of love, it’s not to punish him or to provoke his anger. It comes from a pure motive, in wanting to protect him and having his best interest at heart.
But I am not perfect. And sometimes I may put my interest over my children’s. I might be way too tired to lift him up to see what’s inside that room. Or not take him to the dinosaur museum in the first place because I had too much on my plate and I couldn’t get to everything that I wanted to get done.
Then I thought about how much I don’t know, compared to my Heavenly Father. And how sometimes I am scared or hesitant to do what he wants me to do or complain. In the end, I will always do whatever he asks of me, but if I truly had enough faith and trust in him, I wouldn’t hesitate or have any fear or doubt. The life that he wants me to lead might not be what I have envisioned, but he is able to look through the window and see what is ahead of me and guide me and protect me, warn me and encourage me. And if I let him guide my life, my life will be far more bigger and better than I could ever imagine it to be. His dreams for me are way bigger than the dreams I have for myself. I am just a little 2 year old in his eyes who knows so little, and everything he does to me is for my best interest, never his. He always puts my needs and my interest first, over his. And since he’s a perfect being, he can do everything and anything that he wants to do. No physical imperfections are restraining him from not being able to lift us up to see through the door, because he has a perfect body. He is capable of doing many, many things all at once, and be at many places in one time, his limit is limitless. His power is endless. Then how much more I should trust him and let him guide me in all that I do. I still have so much to learn and grow.
Are there some things in your life that you know deep inside you’re suppose to do, but you’re delaying it out of some kind of fear and doubt?
Beverly Houpt says
Wow! I loved reading this. I never thought about parenting and God's relationship with us in that way. Thanks os much for sharing.
Kayela Larsen says
Thanks for this post! It's amazing how much being a parent has given me a better understanding of Gods love;)