oh my, i’m already crying and this is just the first sentence! i’ve been bipolar all week. you see, my oldest daughter is turning 4 tomorrow. 4! i can’t belive it! one moment i’m so excited to plan for her 4th birthday party, and the next moment i get sad and teary-eyed. i cannot believe how fast time goes by when you have children. it’s too fast. it’s scary. and it’s sad. yes, they call it bittersweet but for me it is way more bitter than sweet. i keep telling adalie, “you promised me you’d stop growing, how come you keep getting so smart and so big?” and she always says to me, “mom, don’t worry, i’ll always be your little girl~!” which makes me even more sad at how old and mature she sounds. when every birthday approaches i think about how many years i have left with them until they leave home and go to college, and this year i only have 14 more years. only 14 more years of being in her presence everyday wishing her good morning and good night, eating dinner together every night, only 14 more years of praying with her, pillow talking with her as i tuck her into bed, singing to her and giving her a last hug and kiss before she drifts off to sleep for the night(oh, you bet ya i’m doing all those things for the next 14 years!). if it makes me cry at every birthday just thinking about this, can you just imagine me in 14 years when i actually do send her to college? oh my goodness, an emotional train wreck i tell you.
p.s: now that i wished you a happy birthday, can you REALLY stop growing after your 4th birthday? mommy would appreciate it, thanks.
Ice Pandora says
Congratulations ^___^ Adalie!
Don't look at the down side, it might look scary but be happy for her because it's your daughter π
xx
donching says
hi unni sarah…
Happy birthday wishes n prayers for miss A…
love ur blog without an end tooo π π
Katie says
That video is absolutely precious! Thanks for sharing!
steph nelsen says
she is beautiful like her momma! i know i've said it before, but i love that we have daughters the same age. i went through the same thing when i saw marrin's school picture this year. i'm going to post it on your FB wall…she looks so grown up! every time i see it i feel such a mixture of sad and proud…you know what i mean. : )
janie says
aw, adalie! love you! it's been so fun to watch you grow up! you came out BEAUTIFUL in your school picture. happy birthday!
janie says
aw, adalie! love you! it's been so fun to watch you grow up! you came out BEAUTIFUL in your school picture. happy birthday!
janie says
aw, adalie! love you! it's been so fun to watch you grow up! you came out BEAUTIFUL in your school picture. happy birthday!
janie says
aw, adalie! love you! it's been so fun to watch you grow up! you came out BEAUTIFUL in your school picture. happy birthday!
Amy says
Oh my sarah I can not believe she is 4, wowza it sure did fly by! Was she really that bald?! ha ha give me hope for Dani, one day she'll have hair right?!
Doesn't that chubby baby in that video make you a tiny bit baby hungry?!
Jilly says
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Sarah says
@Amy: Yes, you have hope, Adi was so bald! i almost forgot since Ana is a lot more bald haha!
@Steph: Yes, I know exactly what you mean. I love knowing about others who have kids the same age as mine too.
Thank you for your comments everyone!
xx