today i didn’t get to nap since by the time little a finally went down for a nap, big A woke up from hers. and i’m a woman who requires a lot of sleep to function(most days i don’t get enough, however), so on days like this, i usually fall asleep with them when i put them to bed for the night. so i went to bed around 9 p.m, woke up at 1:11 a.m, lied in bed trying to fall back asleep until a quarter past 2 a.m but to no avail, i decided to blog while watching episodes of friends on t.v.
then i came across a commercial about a wash detergent and it had a link to a blog of the lady in the commercial, i got curious and looked it up and read a post about her making a peanut butter pie in honor of her blog friend who’s husband just passed away. so i went to her friend’s blog and let’s just say it’s exactly 4:51 a.m right now and i haven’t stopped crying for the last 2 1/2 hrs. like tears dripping down my face the whole time, weeping, sobbing uncontrollably, snot running down my nose, eyes so red and puffy, covering my mouth with my hand so i won’t wake up the family-crying as i’ve read every post on her blog since the passing of her husband. i do not know this lady and have never read her blog until now but i wish i knew her so badly so that i could run over to her house to give her big hugs and cry with her, to make her dinners every night. ah, i cannot stop crying still!
this video she posted touched me the most throughout her beautiful, raw writing on her posts because he reminds me of what my husband would do with our daughters and you can tell from the video just how engaging, attentive, sweet, and loving he is to his daughter. just like my husband.
so thank you jennie, for making me realize how unexpected and short life can be, and to not take time for granted.
p.s: this, this, and this article i found to be very helpful. they’re LDS articles, and i’m in no way trying to push my religion on anybody, they’re just articles i found that gave me peace and thought someone might feel peace reading it, that’s all.
Kory says
I'm a total sucker for those blogs. I spent 2 days during my slow times at work last week reading about a girl who had cancer. They're sad but they're a good perspective check.
Sarah says
Kory, I totally agree! Definitely puts you in a greater perspective. What was the name of the blog you were reading? 🙂
Kory says
http://www.forlindsey.blogspot.com/
Sarah says
Yes, of course i read it and cried.:) thanks for sharing the link!